The aftermath of our loss

 We were never the same again. 

Our loss was so profound, we stopped functioning for a while. 

Its been 11 days since our baby Sky became an angel and we are still hurting. But we have to move forward, somehow. 

We're very careful with my sister, because we dont want her to fall into a deep depression. We try to encourage her, make her laugh, and be conscious of her needs.

Im glad I took the time off work to be with the family, for only the 3rd time in my life, I seriously needed to really be the big sister. 

I had to pick up the pieces and try to heal everyone. 

All of Sky's belonging are here in my room, because my sister and brother-in-law still cant bare looking at her things. I quietly stored all her clothes that were in their shared closet in bins for safe keeping. Her beddings and pillows are all tucked away in plastic covers in the bins in my room. 

It wasnt easy storing her things away, I stopped and cried multiple times doing it, because hard as I try to, I  start thinking of what could have been.  

I still cry sometimes, but only at night. When im alone in my room, so they wont see me.