Capping Off 2019
2019 was a bliss. There were a lot of things I wanted to do and was able to accomplish. There are also a lot of things that scared me and made me realize I was not invincible, Im not young anymore.
To cap off my 2019, here were the highlights and lowlights of my year, enjoy~
Career to unexpected Opportunity
Last quarter of 2018 I already know where my career path would go, it was a pleasant news but still an unknown territory. Although I wasn't hesitant about the change, I know that this change would disrupt the working system that I already have (also the friends that Ive come to love as family). Thinking about it then, the pros of the change really outweighed the cons so I dove, head first into the unknown (cue Frozen 2)
So on Mar 15 2019, I took my last shift from my amazing workplace and Mar 17 2019, I took my first steps into unchartered territory. As you can see from the acronym, its GOC. Google Operations Center - a sister/twin/baby sibling(?!) company of Google. Yes, the Google, the largest tech company in the world.
Im happy I took the plunged. It wasn't easy, it wasn't always happy, but it was exciting, challenging and growth. Growth for me professionally, personally and emotionally.
Self note for 2020: Take the plunge. Take every opportunity you can get. Get out of your comfort zone.
Health Scare
My sight is the no.1 sense I have that I heavily rely on. Im constantly reading, watching and looking. Although I have poor vision, I never thought that I would "lose" my eyesight at this age.
April 9 2019, I started to have blurred vision, more than my usual. This happened regardless if im wearing my glasses or contacts. The following days would have massive headaches and listlessness. I felt my vertigo kicked in multiple times during a car ride that I would throw up (happened 3x) on my way to work.
I thought probably its my grade, I think I need new glasses, so up I went to get my eyes checked and fitted a new pair. I was partially right, my sight got worst and I was up 25 from my grade. Boy, that was only the halftime.
April 19 2019, 2 days after I got my eyes checked, my left eye, cannot turn to the right. All of a sudden, my left eye would only turn to the left, up and down, when I turn to the right, it stayed. it freaked out everyone. Literally EVERYONE.
I went to several eye specialists, even got an MRI with the colouring liquid, but they cant determine the cause of it. The nerves around my eye were not inflamed nor constricted, everything was... normal.
This ordeal lasted about a month. Im good now (thank the Lord!), although the doctors and myself are still baffled on what or how it started.
How did I get better? I would like to believe its sheer will power to get better. One doctor who had patients just like me, said that less than 1% get their vision back (and thats knowing the cause of it), my condition would most likely be, permanent.
I never told anyone this, but after that consultation, I cried. I cried like a part of me died. I cannot live in constant state of dizziness because I couldn't see. I cannot. I refuse. I researched and found ways to strengthen and train my eyes to move. Willed it, practiced day and night, until 1 day, as I was washing my face, I looked in the mirror and tried to do the vision exercise and it turned. My eyes turned. I couldn't believe it. I tried 3 more times and then I cried. Slumped on my bathroom floor because finally, I can see properly.
From then on, I continue to do the exercise and took better care of my eyes. Ive only got 2.
Self note for 2020: Take better care of yourself. Take time to see a doctor this year, ignorance is not always bliss.
Travel for work and fun
I travelled to India! (I have a separate blog about it, so I wont make this long). Short story, India is an amazing country. I would love to comeback one day and experience their wonderful culture, food and people. This trip was one of those unexpected opportunities given to me by my new company, I am forever grateful for it :)
Fun fact: I have a very fair complexion that turns beet red under the heat of the sun and I have red hair, so wherever I go, people would come up to me and ask for selfies(happened prolly around 5-6 times), at first I got weirded out by it because im not a celebrity. But I researched on it and turns out that they are fascinated with foreigners because they dont get to see them often, you can read more about it here
Self note for 2020: TRAVEL MORE.
Weight and beauty.
Yes, the sordid tale of physical appearance. I have a relatively healthy confidence. I was never really bothered by my weight (ive also blogged about my weight loss journey here and here). I was for the most part the epitome of "unbotheredness" of my weight.
But this year, this year I got bombarded with different ideology of what it means to be Beautiful. Well, ive had enough.
Dont get me wrong, im not trying to lose weight to fit into the mold, Im trying to lose weight for ME. I want to lose the weight so can free dive into the ocean again and not have problems staying underwater, climb mountains again and not lose my breathe halfway, I want to have a more active lifestyle like a used to have before the lovelife happened. I wanted to experience nature again. I wanted to be back in the ocean, back in the mountains. I wanted to run and cycle and dance and everything I want to do, without losing breath or tiring midway.
Self note for 2020: Love yourself. ALL of YOU. BODY POSITIVE. Do not change for anyone but yourself.
A Year of Reunions
2019 was wonderful. I was extremely happy that I get to meet my friends that I haven't seen for a long time. I am that bad in staying in contact with friends, more-so with relatives. My friends can attest to this, even my mom has it hard trying to contact me.
Its not because I forgot them or anything, its really because im SUPER LAZY texting/calling. I do not live with my phone as part of my body anymore, I only do that if im playing a game. I also do not do a lot of SNS (social media) case in point: this blog is updated I dont know, every 4 months?!.
But that does not mean I love them any less or I dont think about them. Its really, really, im just really lazy. Im sorry.
Self note for 2020: Get off and call these people more often. Be a better friend.
Super Show - KPOP, KShows, K-beauty
Ok, I have been an ELF (everlasting friend - fandom of Super Junior) since 2011. I was a KPOP fan, when being a KPOP fan was frowned upon. I have absolutely no words for this momentous time of my life. To see all of them in the flesh (again!) was a blessing.
TBH, i dipped from KPOP prolly a good part of 2013 - 2016 because I was busy with my work (which ate 13-16 hrs of my daily waking moment) I did not have a good work life balance then.
Now that Im much grown, I gave myself time to go back to my hobby and de-stress. Guess what that is? Yes, I went back to KPOP. Also meet wonderful people that I call my ELF Chingus that love these ahjussis with the same passion as me <3
ICYW im what you call a multi, im a fan of (in order of love and willingness to spend time and money JK!!): ELF, Cassiopeia, SONE, Shawol, VIP, Blackjack, Star1, Ueanan, EXO-L, Reveluv, MooMoo, One-It etc etc tec.
I dont really hate on anyone and listen to everyone.
I would probably (most definitely do) blog about my K-Love :)
Self note for 2020: Do not be ashamed of listening to KPOP out loud. WHO CARES? absolutely no one.
Here's to 2020!
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